there's been talk about cool lately...

determining cool can be a tricky process. unlike being hip, which suggests that you know what’s happening, and unlike being down, which suggests you are in with the in crowd, being cool is a fiercely individual characteristic. going your own way at your pace is cool. trying to be cool is oxymoronic. asking people what’s cool is uncool, and telling people what’s cool...as i'm doing right now in this very sentence, is even less cool. but breaking the rules is cool so there’s always that out and having an out is cool.

reviving my blog thru romulus

It is probably the saddest song I've heard in my life. It's a story about parental abandonment from the pov of her kid which is pretty depressing. But I like this song bc the lines carry rich meaning in its details, like this one that captured the mother's self-destructive and self involved ways: "she smoked in her room and colored her hair / and i was ashamed / i was ashamed of her."

Recently, I tried to convey to a friend why this song resonated with me. Well, for one, I praised my man sufj because he is a master at using words and imagery to convey multiple meanings. But also, I think his playing style is enchanting. His prickly banjo pulls these lines together and tells an intimate story about a kid who has tried to move on from the pain of a neglectful mother. But it's not just about the kid, if u listen closely, both the kid and mom were coping with their own insignificance. I remember a long time ago when my mom dyed her hair. Our relationship was fine yet I still felt a pinch. For a moment, she was different and far away. I never did ask why she did it but I'm sure she had her reasons. anyway, i felt like i heard something new after repeating the song 77x, which is cool but also pretty sad in a completely different way

btw, i have bronchitis. pray for its quick death