i really can't remember whether this was real or not. but i had sleep paralysis and not only could i not move i couldn't get a word out. i heard of people whispering jesus but i don't think that thought even came to me b/c i knew it was pointless to try to speak. i just thought, omg i'm stuck like this. it felt like i was drowning.. all i heard were voices in my left ear. i can't tell u what the voices said tho. i feel like it was a dream b/c i was sleeping with my head down and my arms was spread eagle on my bed. i don't normally sleep like that.. irregardless, yea i wanted to write this down as my memory is already fuzzy not that this is related. i came on here also b/c i had saved a post about what i thought heaven would be like, but it's gone somehow. ugh, i thought i was on the verge of something too but now there's nothing left to complete

intern app

i have to finish my intern app but i am blogging because i want to see if writing as an outlet will help me produce the best application essay ever. oh my goodness i need to ginish. nit o am so tired and it's like twelce on teh afternoon. o am tuping with my head tucked in my arm so i can't see a thing. how will it turn out i wonder. oh that' s pretty good